Psalm 27:13 – NKJV, “I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.”

 -Cait Manuel-Brown 

Why Reginald Noble, you ask? If so, this is my testimony.....

Reginald Noble School of Technology Methodologies Training was named in honor of Reginald Noble! Anyone who visits this site may see this. However, almost no one knows why.

Well then, once upon a time….I was backstage during one of Reginald Noble’s concerts. Oh no, it wasn’t what you think! I was backstage because I had a business partnership with one of the facilitators of the event.

I’d just gotten word that my mother had passed away after a battle with a very rare brain cancer. However, I was bound to fulfill the obligation to my business partner. There was no turning back or everything my partner had set up would have most likely fallen through (on their end).

Part of that obligation was sitting backstage as Reginald Noble did his performance. Needless to say, I did not want to be there one bit. My attitude showed it. I’d just lost my mom. My siblings needed me. The father of my only child (my husband) had just suffered a stroke and was left handicap at a very, very young age.

“If only God would give me the gift of healing”, I thought. “Why me? I’m so young”, I was thinking. “Who goes through this? I hate the entire part of the world that’s happy,” I was saying to myself. The entire time, I was backstage.

See, the source of my problem was pain; spiritual pain.  Anyone who knows me can attest that I was reared in a very devout, Christian household. I know nothing else, but to believe the Word of God.

In my mind, God had failed me. I felt not only had He failed me, He’d also failed my siblings, my father, my husband and most of all, my only child, my son. I was in pain. The symptoms (of that pain) manifested themselves via my attitude.

As my horrific attitude reigned supreme backstage, the show was amazing. I’d never seen so much energy in my life (and I’m a former cheerleader)! However, my wallowing in self pity and “world hatred” would not allow me to enjoy it…..and I did not make that anything for anyone to guess about!

I’m sure by the time Reginald Noble came backstage to take a breather after the first half, everyone wanted me gone. I wanted to be gone!

As he moved about backstage, while everyone else probably tried their best to stay away from me (I’m sure of it!), Reginald Noble sat within just a few feet away from me. He wasn’t “scared”. LOL.

If you can image being in an almost dark area (not completely dark but almost dark with filtered lights), then imagine a “step up” that leads to another room (bathroom, etc). That was the basic lay out of the scene that we were in backstage.

Reginald Noble sat on the “step up”. He used it as a seat. He had his head down. He was just sitting. Now imagine the room that the step up leads to has a brighter light shining. This caused a “glow” on Reginald’s face (actually his entire self) because the back area was otherwise relatively dark.

I was standing a few feet away wallowing in my chaotic thoughts. To myself, I said, “God, I can’t do this. I can’t go any more.” Thinking that he somehow heard my thoughts or that he could tell that I was thinking something “off the wall”..I don’t even recall whether I was speaking under my breath or not, I turned briefly to look at Reginald.

He, at the same time, glanced upward and for 2 seconds our eyes met. It was THEN, in that brief time frame, that I “saw” the unadulterated Shekinah  Glory, the Spirit of God. Reginald’s eyes pierced past my symptoms. They stared straight into my pain.

 I saw and heard (spiritually), “You’re good. You will be ok. You’re alright. It’s going to be ok.” There were NO WORDS spoken between us. He put his head back down as I allowed that light of God that he imparted upon me via his own lamp to penetrate my spiritual pain. 

Reginald had NO IDEA what he’d just done. He was simply being his “God self”.

I KNEW for a fact that GOD had Reginald ignore my symptoms so that GOD Himself could use Reginald to comfort my spirit. God moves via His Word. His Word does not return void. The Word of God says, Matthew 6:22” “The eye is the lamp of the body…” Reginald let his lamp shine so bright (Matthew 5:16), he brought spiritual healing to me backstage that night.  

Upon initial contact (to get permission to name the school in his honor), the liaison (facilitator/ contact) between us (the two parties) laughed whole-heartedly when I said, “By the time he went back on stage to perform, I was trying to hold myself back from doing my Holy Dance.” LOL! Not knowing what he’d just done, a stellar performance he did put on. He has the energy of an 8 year old boy. You have to see him in action (No, this is not a promotion LOL).

Now fast forward 8 years. I’d long ago forgotten about that backstage incident. Well, I’d put it in the back of my mind and did not think about it again. I’d moved on from that chapter in my life. The backstage encounter moved along with it.

I began working on a Technical School for underserved youth and youth who are non violent offenders. I started off with the foundational aspects of the project (the documentation, the business plan, the charts and graphs and statistical data, etc. etc.).

During this time and after several strokes and illness, my husband passed away. Although by the time he did (at a very young), he was totally bedridden. As a matter of fact, he’d been sick the entire 8 years since the backstage encounter.

Those same old feelings I had while backstage returned. “God, why didn’t you heal him?” I asked. “Why can’t you just give me the gift of healing?” I demanded to know.

This time, I was “serious” with God. I sobbed. I cried. I didn’t sob and cry because of the death. He had been ill and suffering. I cried for myself. I cried, sobbed, wept for me.

I went into my office area to entreat God fervently. I needed to know why I did not have the gift of healing. As I mediated and petitioned God, the scripture Hebrews 2:4 came to my spirit. This scripture says, “God also testifies to it by signs, wonders and various miracles, and by the gifts of the Holy Spirit (that HE) distributed according to HIS will.”

After being put in my place by God’s Word, I cried again. I said, “GOD, give me the peace that surpasses all understanding. I can’t do this. I can’t. I’m afraid of death. I am afraid of what will become of me.” After 8 years, just as John 14:29 tells us the Holy Spirit would do (bring things back to our remembrance), the Holy Spirit brought back to my remembrance that backstage encounter and the scripture Deuteronomy 31:8 came to my spirit, “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

God was telling me that even backstage at a concert, I used a vessel to bring you peace. I’m not going anywhere. You have nothing to fear.

Once again, the backstage encounter went to the back of my mind; that is for a few weeks. I continued to work on the foundations of the school. Anyone who has ever “moved” a project before knows that it is stressful the first time.

 I “move” IT projects (and boy do I). I’ve never moved a project such as this before and the stress, anxiety levels are high. As, unlike with IT, I have no “control” over the people, agencies, entities or resources that are required to put it into production. Talk about stressful!

This project has been a "reality check" for me as well. People that I was certain that I could depend on, I found out that I thought “wrong”. LOL. I found that I am very naïve when it comes to thinking that people will “come through” because they said they’d do “anything” for you. They will show at any event you have be it in person, call-in or via video. They will be on their way!! These same people now run from me! Total "reality check". I wear big girl clothes now! I've learned to trust and depend on God!

I've lost my mind several times. Each time I found and recovered it, it got lost again. The government agencies have been phenomenal with helping, however. (Yeah, I shouted them out “on the low”).

I think that it was right after the 3rd time I'd lost my mind; I went to God in supplication. I said, “God, I need help. I have no control over the things that I need to make this project move. I know that you called me to do this. However, people won’t get into position on this. I can’t make them, either.”

As I meditated, something “broke” inside of me. It was like a floodgate. I felt it in my spirit. It was like a pop. Seriously, I have good friend who is a psychoanalyst. I do not hallucinate. She would get me immediate help, if I did.

I seriously felt a “pop” inside of me. The “block” came off. I then begin to flourish with writing out and documenting a business plan that “moves” around the “blocks” and “obstacles” that I’d been facing. I came up with a plan A, B, C, etc.

We are actually months (I mean months) ahead of schedule. Do I still stress? “Oh boy, yes I do”. Do I still lose my mind? "Oh yea. Oh yea. I just found it a few seconds ago so that I could “pen" this statement. LOL Do the people who are around me (in my inner circle) “get it” from me? “Oh boy, yes they do”. I rant all day and night about moving this project and putting this ministry into operation status so that we can serve our youth in the name of Christ.

The ones in my family who do not run when they see me coming, have resorted to just watching TV or carrying on other activities while “listening” to me throw “ideas” out then take them back!! I have literal tons of documents that I insist they review "when they get time". The catch is, I also insist they make time! Oh yea. I'm excited! Even the kids (in my family) say, "Oh no, come on, we're not talking about 'The Reginald School' again, are we?" LOL

I am just flowing in the “sea of creativity” as I stress, anticipate and experience the excitement of it all! LOL

However, in the midst of losing my mind while at the same time literally harassing my family, I've experienced tremendous spiritual and personal growth. God has shown me that I should meditate upon God and to keep my focus on God rather than the actions (or non actions) of “man" to be the key to moving such a project. 

One day as I was working on the business plan (basking in the ‘flow’ of God), the Holy Spirit ONCE AGAIN brought up that backstage encounter where my symptoms were ignored and the source of them was addressed.

It was AT THIS TIME, in my spirit came the scripture: NIV, Ecclesiastes 3:15, “What is happening now has happened before, and what will happen in the future has happened before, because God makes the same things happen over and over again.”

It was then that God spoke to my spirit that I should change the name of the school to honor Reginald Noble. That same way he’d used Reginald to see beyond my symptoms and spiritually “heal” my pain is the same exact way, he will use him to see beyond the symptoms of these young men to help them through their journey to being productive citizens.

After that, one thing led to another as far as getting permission to honor him in this manner and the rest is LITERALLY history.

If the above did not answer anyone’s question: “Why Reginald Noble”, I will simplify the answer for you  with this….”God told me to do so….” I hope THAT answers the question of “Why Reginald Noble”.

The End

Our family motto, I share with you (as family):

“Nous sommes tous des âmes sœurs. Nous sommes tous un en esprit et conscience! Nous sommes tous un.” –Caitie

{Translation from Louisiana Creole: “We are all kindred spirits. We are all of one spirit and consciousness. We are all one.”}